Love that wasn't

I used to think we were so good,
Happiness was all I ever needed.

Time goes on and does something,
something to us all,
something that tears us apart for no reason.

All we have now is this silence,
things we should have said,
now just fragments of lost times.

Tossing and turning in bed,
your side of the bed miles away,
drowning in solitude.

I want you, I need you,
but your not here,
your just the love that wasn't.

Out at sea

Swimming in a sea of decisions, knowledge is my boat, steadfastness my oars

what to do what to do, a giant wave of indecisiveness overwhelms me

Seagulls overhead twirling, serving their purpose, distracted...

Out at sea, capsized, drowning in waves of uncertainty

Everywhere i look water, like a constant reminder of deterrances

Confusion like intense thirst consuming me, won't you save me?

Save you from yourself, ebb away like the tide

Dive deep and sink float into nothingness all of your worries dissapear

Direction is lost when all is dark...

Rain

Loneliness is worse with silence
This void of nothing all around
Enough to drive you to violence
Tears falling the only sound

I just needed someone to talk to
No one was there, as usual
No one not even you
Perhaps hope made me delusional

Swimming through a sea of emptiness
No strength to keep me alive
I grab the only thing I'm used to, foolishness
When all is gone, I could take the dive

Lifeless on the lawn, rain pouring down
each drop shattering my dreams
Staring into an ocean of tears, nothing else around
Pray for nothing, no rays of sun just screams

And then I awake, face covered in years
Years I've lived with pain and more to come
Reach for numbness as the pain sears
A fire burning deep, hatred leads to numb

Open your arms and here comes the pain
Don't try to stop or hinder it
You simply can't stop the rain
Then again its only true if you believe it

The Heartbroke King

In the dark I sit on my throne listening
reaching out into the darkness to find you
the tears i have cried on my cheek glistening
my bed will be empty no matter what I do
so what am I to do about this problem
I could sit and cry and suffer
but it wouldn't solve my issues only examine them
I must use this heart ache to grow tougher
the old wounds opened anew
I thought everything could be better could be ok
instead my heart, my soul was slew
I lay here crying, dying waiting for someone to say it will be ok

In the dark I sit on my throne screaming
how can one rule a country when he has no power over his own heart
There is no safe time for I think of you even when dreaming
I am supposed to be strong, but how when inside I'm torn apart
inside I am dying, inside I am dead, there is no more
destroyed, viscerated, vanquished, eliminated
tricked and sabotaged by a simple whore
the damage has been done, recorded, slated

In the dark I sit on my throne defeated
the darkness consuming my heart turning me
my flaws obvious, in all eyes conceited
none of that matters anymore for darkness I will be
looked over too often and not loved enough
this sickness my greatest weakness and strength
I say to you all prepare for life is going to be rough
I hope that all are ready to go the length
For my wrath will be terrible and I will exact it
No more suffering no more pain no more selfishness
Now everyone will know the anger as I portray it
All will be punished and annihilated for their foolishness

In the dark I sit on my throne deranged
inside their is nothingness only a numb echo
No one understands my rulings or my thoughts I am left estranged
Everyone will see when the King's tolerance reaches zero
There once was a good man, a strong man who cared for all
this man was smart, loving, courageous heroic someone all would follow
then those who would wish to cause him harm appeared
those who were jealous of his existence and happiness
too many followed the enemy and thus through the heart the king was speared
now the only thing left is the king's self-destructiveness

In the dark I sit in my room lost
Everything that was is no more
like a ship at sea my mind is turned and tossed
filled with anguish, anger, and hatred to the very core
Save me, save you, save yourself!
All are exiled to me and all will be forever
Stay in your false happiness tucked into your happy shelf
one day you will lose stupidity and with all humans your ties will sever

Won't you join the Heartbroke King?
Won't you lose your humanity?
Won't you cease being!?
Won't you join me in insanity?

Just be

Forever and eternity is what you mean to me
nothing will change that no matter what
When I'm with you I am happiest as I can be
Sometimes I have trouble keeping my mouth shut
but other times I can never say enough
you don't judge me or berate me
simply you give me life and make me tough
my heart was once glass now its flowing like the sea
You fix my writer's block when I cant write
you make me smile even when I'm sure I can't
I wait with bated breath for you to come back when you leave my sight
you even put up with me when I rant
I know were not perfect and never will be
but with you I don't mind my flaws
The lock on my heart was opened with you as the key
with you around my heart just thaws
Stay up all night sleep all day no matter what
all I can do is think of you constantly
your love like a beacon of light pulling me from any rut
When the phone rings i answer excitedly
If this isn't love I'm not sure what is
my heart is bursting and my chest is thumping
the melody of my life consumes me
the beat of my heart keeps the music bumping
no matter what with you I can just Be.

Detective Script

FADE IN
Screen fades in from black. A young man in his twenties or so is sitting behind a desk in an office. The office has an air of gloom in it lit by a single lamp on a side table. A name plaque on the desk says Ender Maloney P. I. The man smells the sweet yet stale aroma of the pipe smoke left behind by his latest client. Mr. Dodgers was always smoking that pipe when he came in and it always left Maloney’s office with that sickly sweet aroma in the air. (camera moves around room) The book shelves on the wall seem to detest the smell as well because the books always seem to fade a little more each time he comes in. Maloney’s secretary orders carpet cleaning for the great Persian rug on the floor after each visit.

MALONEY’S VOICE
(talking into intercom)

Ms. Lucy.

LUCY’S VOICE
(out of intercom)

Yes Mr. Maloney.

MALONEY

I need the usual clean up job Ms. Lucy.

LUCY

Yes Sir Mr. Maloney.

Maloney still can’t get Mr. Dodgers request out of his head. Never in his 5 years of being a private investigator has he ever had a request like this. (police scanner crackles in the background) Why would this upstanding citizen want him to watch a husband and wife for him? Even though Mr. Dodgers comes in often looking for Maloney’s services for little tidbits of information from aspiring clients and such. This makes sense considering Mr. Dodgers line of work being a lawyer and all, but this was a little too private and personal. Maloney would take the job anyway regardless of the situation.

LUCY’S VOICE
(out of intercom)

Mr. Maloney you should turn the volume of the scanner up sir and listen.
Maloney reaches over and turns the volume on the scanner up.

DISPATCHER’S VOICE
(out of scanner)

(static) We have a call from 1254 North Eddington Street from a Mrs. Gifalga, she says her husband has been killed. All available units to report there now.

Maloney switches off the scanner and reaches in his desk drawer and takes out a folder. The folder says Greg Gifalga and Evelyn Gifalga, Maloney lowers his head and thinks to himself.

MALONEY

(in his mind)

Oh boy, here we go…..

Space Station Script

Screen turns from black to white, an air conditioner duct is ripped open and an alien jumps out of duct.

Computer
Alert, Alert security breach in sector 8, sub floor basement. All units report to sector 8 left corridor for retaliatory actions. Alert, Alert security breach in sector, sub floor basement. All units report to sector 8 left corridor for retaliatory actions.

John
What is that?! Dans get to equipment bay and issue equipment.

Lieutenant Dans
Yes Sir. Uuumm uuuhhhh Sir. Any idea what it is?
John gets up and starts walking out the door.

John
Don't know, don’t care let’s just kill it and get off our damn ship.
Screen pans to the left and the left corridor comes into view with soldiers lining up.

Computer
Alert, all available units to sector 8 left corridor, the threat has been identified.
Threat has been classified as a level 5 threat. The threat is a Scarat Hunter. Weapons armed order is given.

Random Soldier #1
A, a, a Scarat Hunter, Commander Sir, how did that thing get on the ship, we are millions of miles away from Scaran. Are we properly armed to fight that thing?

John
Soldier, hold your tongue and hold your position. We could have been followed after we left the Third meteor belt. Our radars are jammed because of the flares coming off the stars around there anyway. The computer says there is only one of them so form up Alpha Tactical Squads and let’s make the Hunter the hunted.
The troops form into squads and proceed into a corridor and down a flight of stairs. The last person in the line of troops is pulled into the shadows unnoticed.

John
Spread out troops but stay in sight of another one of our men. As soon as someone gets a visual on the intruder notify us immediately. We are to fire on sight.
Soldiers in Unison
Yes, Sir!

Barely audible speech
My name is Tolgaktu and I am here to take over this ship all resistance will be annihilated.
All troops look around astonished

John
Stay on the ready men. Computer, switch all helm views to thermal.

Computer
Switching HUD to thermal view. Initial scan shows intruder in room 439.

John
Ok men everyone take up positions surround all exits of that room and get ready to eliminate the enemy.

Random Soldier #2
Sir, it’s not registering on the visor. I can’t see him anywhere in the room.
John
He must have switched the coolant function on his suit. Don't worry; the computer got his heat signal in this room before he switched it on. All we have to do is make sure he doesn't escape.

Random Soldier #2
Sir, Yes --- Tolgaktu breaks through the wall beside him and cuts his throat. Tolgaktu then dispatches 3 more of the soldiers as he runs around a corner. The soldiers began shooting as soon as he killed the first soldier and begin giving chase. --- Gurgle, cough, cough

John
Alpha Squad make pursuit, Bravo split off and go down the corridor to cut him off! Someone get these men a medic! Computer run a scan through our P.O.W archives to see if we have any information on a Scarat Hunter named Tolgaktu.

Computer
Yes, Commander John. Running scans now. We have no records of this enemy. Nor do we have any records of ships he could have come on.

John
What about cloaking devices?

Computer
Thermal scans have been made for the surrounding area and there have been no heat signatures from ships found.

Flash to Alpha Squad. Lieutenant Dans is being held in the air on the end of a sword. Tolgaktu throws Dans and hits a platoon of soldiers.
John rushes around the corner and sees Lieutenant Dans’ demise.

John
Men reform into your squads and attack him all together. We will not let this riffraff disrupt our ship and I won’t let him be responsible for the deaths of my men any longer.

The squads reform and charge as Tolgaktu readies for the onslaught. A large battle commences. John’s men pour shots and shots in to the intruder with no effect, while Tolgaktu shreds John’s men to pieces with blades and bullets.

John
Damn out of rounds. Why can’t we seem to hit this thing with any of our bullets?!
John sees the last of his men fall under the wrath of Tolgaktu’s energy sword and blaster rifle. John throws his empty weapon down and pulls out his combat knife.

John
You have taken the lives of my men and damaged my ship. I cannot let you live past this point.

Tolgaktu
You pathetic humans are all the same. You are all so sure and pretentious. You think you have the right to do what you want and go as you please. Today is the day you find out why all of your assumptions were for nothing. After I kill you I am going to kill every single last person on this ship and claim it for the Grixian Empire.

John smiles and charges Tolgaktu with his knife ready. Tolgaktu charges John.

When the two meet screen flash white.

Dans
Commander, Commander wake up we have an intruder on the ship.