Saturday, November 27, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Love that wasn't
I used to think we were so good,
Happiness was all I ever needed.
Time goes on and does something,
something to us all,
something that tears us apart for no reason.
All we have now is this silence,
things we should have said,
now just fragments of lost times.
Tossing and turning in bed,
your side of the bed miles away,
drowning in solitude.
I want you, I need you,
but your not here,
your just the love that wasn't.
Happiness was all I ever needed.
Time goes on and does something,
something to us all,
something that tears us apart for no reason.
All we have now is this silence,
things we should have said,
now just fragments of lost times.
Tossing and turning in bed,
your side of the bed miles away,
drowning in solitude.
I want you, I need you,
but your not here,
your just the love that wasn't.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Out at sea
Swimming in a sea of decisions, knowledge is my boat, steadfastness my oars
what to do what to do, a giant wave of indecisiveness overwhelms me
Seagulls overhead twirling, serving their purpose, distracted...
Out at sea, capsized, drowning in waves of uncertainty
Everywhere i look water, like a constant reminder of deterrances
Confusion like intense thirst consuming me, won't you save me?
Save you from yourself, ebb away like the tide
Dive deep and sink float into nothingness all of your worries dissapear
Direction is lost when all is dark...
Monday, June 28, 2010
Rain
Loneliness is worse with silence
This void of nothing all around
Enough to drive you to violence
Tears falling the only sound
I just needed someone to talk to
No one was there, as usual
No one not even you
Perhaps hope made me delusional
Swimming through a sea of emptiness
No strength to keep me alive
I grab the only thing I'm used to, foolishness
When all is gone, I could take the dive
Lifeless on the lawn, rain pouring down
each drop shattering my dreams
Staring into an ocean of tears, nothing else around
Pray for nothing, no rays of sun just screams
And then I awake, face covered in years
Years I've lived with pain and more to come
Reach for numbness as the pain sears
A fire burning deep, hatred leads to numb
Open your arms and here comes the pain
Don't try to stop or hinder it
You simply can't stop the rain
Then again its only true if you believe it
This void of nothing all around
Enough to drive you to violence
Tears falling the only sound
I just needed someone to talk to
No one was there, as usual
No one not even you
Perhaps hope made me delusional
Swimming through a sea of emptiness
No strength to keep me alive
I grab the only thing I'm used to, foolishness
When all is gone, I could take the dive
Lifeless on the lawn, rain pouring down
each drop shattering my dreams
Staring into an ocean of tears, nothing else around
Pray for nothing, no rays of sun just screams
And then I awake, face covered in years
Years I've lived with pain and more to come
Reach for numbness as the pain sears
A fire burning deep, hatred leads to numb
Open your arms and here comes the pain
Don't try to stop or hinder it
You simply can't stop the rain
Then again its only true if you believe it
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
The Heartbroke King
In the dark I sit on my throne listening
reaching out into the darkness to find you
the tears i have cried on my cheek glistening
my bed will be empty no matter what I do
so what am I to do about this problem
I could sit and cry and suffer
but it wouldn't solve my issues only examine them
I must use this heart ache to grow tougher
the old wounds opened anew
I thought everything could be better could be ok
instead my heart, my soul was slew
I lay here crying, dying waiting for someone to say it will be ok
In the dark I sit on my throne screaming
how can one rule a country when he has no power over his own heart
There is no safe time for I think of you even when dreaming
I am supposed to be strong, but how when inside I'm torn apart
inside I am dying, inside I am dead, there is no more
destroyed, viscerated, vanquished, eliminated
tricked and sabotaged by a simple whore
the damage has been done, recorded, slated
In the dark I sit on my throne defeated
the darkness consuming my heart turning me
my flaws obvious, in all eyes conceited
none of that matters anymore for darkness I will be
looked over too often and not loved enough
this sickness my greatest weakness and strength
I say to you all prepare for life is going to be rough
I hope that all are ready to go the length
For my wrath will be terrible and I will exact it
No more suffering no more pain no more selfishness
Now everyone will know the anger as I portray it
All will be punished and annihilated for their foolishness
In the dark I sit on my throne deranged
inside their is nothingness only a numb echo
No one understands my rulings or my thoughts I am left estranged
Everyone will see when the King's tolerance reaches zero
There once was a good man, a strong man who cared for all
this man was smart, loving, courageous heroic someone all would follow
then those who would wish to cause him harm appeared
those who were jealous of his existence and happiness
too many followed the enemy and thus through the heart the king was speared
now the only thing left is the king's self-destructiveness
In the dark I sit in my room lost
Everything that was is no more
like a ship at sea my mind is turned and tossed
filled with anguish, anger, and hatred to the very core
Save me, save you, save yourself!
All are exiled to me and all will be forever
Stay in your false happiness tucked into your happy shelf
one day you will lose stupidity and with all humans your ties will sever
Won't you join the Heartbroke King?
Won't you lose your humanity?
Won't you cease being!?
Won't you join me in insanity?
reaching out into the darkness to find you
the tears i have cried on my cheek glistening
my bed will be empty no matter what I do
so what am I to do about this problem
I could sit and cry and suffer
but it wouldn't solve my issues only examine them
I must use this heart ache to grow tougher
the old wounds opened anew
I thought everything could be better could be ok
instead my heart, my soul was slew
I lay here crying, dying waiting for someone to say it will be ok
In the dark I sit on my throne screaming
how can one rule a country when he has no power over his own heart
There is no safe time for I think of you even when dreaming
I am supposed to be strong, but how when inside I'm torn apart
inside I am dying, inside I am dead, there is no more
destroyed, viscerated, vanquished, eliminated
tricked and sabotaged by a simple whore
the damage has been done, recorded, slated
In the dark I sit on my throne defeated
the darkness consuming my heart turning me
my flaws obvious, in all eyes conceited
none of that matters anymore for darkness I will be
looked over too often and not loved enough
this sickness my greatest weakness and strength
I say to you all prepare for life is going to be rough
I hope that all are ready to go the length
For my wrath will be terrible and I will exact it
No more suffering no more pain no more selfishness
Now everyone will know the anger as I portray it
All will be punished and annihilated for their foolishness
In the dark I sit on my throne deranged
inside their is nothingness only a numb echo
No one understands my rulings or my thoughts I am left estranged
Everyone will see when the King's tolerance reaches zero
There once was a good man, a strong man who cared for all
this man was smart, loving, courageous heroic someone all would follow
then those who would wish to cause him harm appeared
those who were jealous of his existence and happiness
too many followed the enemy and thus through the heart the king was speared
now the only thing left is the king's self-destructiveness
In the dark I sit in my room lost
Everything that was is no more
like a ship at sea my mind is turned and tossed
filled with anguish, anger, and hatred to the very core
Save me, save you, save yourself!
All are exiled to me and all will be forever
Stay in your false happiness tucked into your happy shelf
one day you will lose stupidity and with all humans your ties will sever
Won't you join the Heartbroke King?
Won't you lose your humanity?
Won't you cease being!?
Won't you join me in insanity?
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Just be
Forever and eternity is what you mean to me
nothing will change that no matter what
When I'm with you I am happiest as I can be
Sometimes I have trouble keeping my mouth shut
but other times I can never say enough
you don't judge me or berate me
simply you give me life and make me tough
my heart was once glass now its flowing like the sea
You fix my writer's block when I cant write
you make me smile even when I'm sure I can't
I wait with bated breath for you to come back when you leave my sight
you even put up with me when I rant
I know were not perfect and never will be
but with you I don't mind my flaws
The lock on my heart was opened with you as the key
with you around my heart just thaws
Stay up all night sleep all day no matter what
all I can do is think of you constantly
your love like a beacon of light pulling me from any rut
When the phone rings i answer excitedly
If this isn't love I'm not sure what is
my heart is bursting and my chest is thumping
the melody of my life consumes me
the beat of my heart keeps the music bumping
no matter what with you I can just Be.
nothing will change that no matter what
When I'm with you I am happiest as I can be
Sometimes I have trouble keeping my mouth shut
but other times I can never say enough
you don't judge me or berate me
simply you give me life and make me tough
my heart was once glass now its flowing like the sea
You fix my writer's block when I cant write
you make me smile even when I'm sure I can't
I wait with bated breath for you to come back when you leave my sight
you even put up with me when I rant
I know were not perfect and never will be
but with you I don't mind my flaws
The lock on my heart was opened with you as the key
with you around my heart just thaws
Stay up all night sleep all day no matter what
all I can do is think of you constantly
your love like a beacon of light pulling me from any rut
When the phone rings i answer excitedly
If this isn't love I'm not sure what is
my heart is bursting and my chest is thumping
the melody of my life consumes me
the beat of my heart keeps the music bumping
no matter what with you I can just Be.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Detective Script
FADE IN
Screen fades in from black. A young man in his twenties or so is sitting behind a desk in an office. The office has an air of gloom in it lit by a single lamp on a side table. A name plaque on the desk says Ender Maloney P. I. The man smells the sweet yet stale aroma of the pipe smoke left behind by his latest client. Mr. Dodgers was always smoking that pipe when he came in and it always left Maloney’s office with that sickly sweet aroma in the air. (camera moves around room) The book shelves on the wall seem to detest the smell as well because the books always seem to fade a little more each time he comes in. Maloney’s secretary orders carpet cleaning for the great Persian rug on the floor after each visit.
Maloney still can’t get Mr. Dodgers request out of his head. Never in his 5 years of being a private investigator has he ever had a request like this. (police scanner crackles in the background) Why would this upstanding citizen want him to watch a husband and wife for him? Even though Mr. Dodgers comes in often looking for Maloney’s services for little tidbits of information from aspiring clients and such. This makes sense considering Mr. Dodgers line of work being a lawyer and all, but this was a little too private and personal. Maloney would take the job anyway regardless of the situation.
Maloney reaches over and turns the volume on the scanner up.
Maloney switches off the scanner and reaches in his desk drawer and takes out a folder. The folder says Greg Gifalga and Evelyn Gifalga, Maloney lowers his head and thinks to himself.
Screen fades in from black. A young man in his twenties or so is sitting behind a desk in an office. The office has an air of gloom in it lit by a single lamp on a side table. A name plaque on the desk says Ender Maloney P. I. The man smells the sweet yet stale aroma of the pipe smoke left behind by his latest client. Mr. Dodgers was always smoking that pipe when he came in and it always left Maloney’s office with that sickly sweet aroma in the air. (camera moves around room) The book shelves on the wall seem to detest the smell as well because the books always seem to fade a little more each time he comes in. Maloney’s secretary orders carpet cleaning for the great Persian rug on the floor after each visit.
MALONEY’S VOICE
(talking into intercom)
Ms. Lucy.(talking into intercom)
LUCY’S VOICE
(out of intercom)
Yes Mr. Maloney.(out of intercom)
MALONEY
I need the usual clean up job Ms. Lucy.LUCY
Yes Sir Mr. Maloney.Maloney still can’t get Mr. Dodgers request out of his head. Never in his 5 years of being a private investigator has he ever had a request like this. (police scanner crackles in the background) Why would this upstanding citizen want him to watch a husband and wife for him? Even though Mr. Dodgers comes in often looking for Maloney’s services for little tidbits of information from aspiring clients and such. This makes sense considering Mr. Dodgers line of work being a lawyer and all, but this was a little too private and personal. Maloney would take the job anyway regardless of the situation.
LUCY’S VOICE
(out of intercom)
Mr. Maloney you should turn the volume of the scanner up sir and listen.(out of intercom)
Maloney reaches over and turns the volume on the scanner up.
DISPATCHER’S VOICE
(out of scanner)
(static) We have a call from 1254 North Eddington Street from a Mrs. Gifalga, she says her husband has been killed. All available units to report there now.(out of scanner)
Maloney switches off the scanner and reaches in his desk drawer and takes out a folder. The folder says Greg Gifalga and Evelyn Gifalga, Maloney lowers his head and thinks to himself.
MALONEY
(in his mind)
Oh boy, here we go…..
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